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Friday, July 18, 2014
Depression pulls me down painfully, how do I escape?
me down painfully, how do I escape?
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I didn't want to wake up. I was having a much better time asleep. And that's really sad. It was almost like a reverse nightmare,
like when you wake up from a nightmare you're so relieved. I woke up into a nightmare.” ~ Ned Vizzini,
It's Kind of a Funny Story
Tendrils of pain...fish hooks of anguish claw into my mind and soul, dragging me down like a modern Gulliver
in the land of evil Lilliputians that have sharp agonising control of my life. Thoughts sluggishly turn to despair. Why? Why
me? Why is there no way out? Why is life so hard?
The words tumble around my brain, none making sense. All hurting!
Evil is evil and they say there is a way out. Yet to do so means I have to give
up everything. I have to give up my life! Not physically as that would mean I will forever be in this horrible state or worse.
They say Hell is like that. Eternity in this state without death would be the worst I could imagine. I understand that is
what hell is now. I can understand that. Hell is this pain and worse, forever! I don’t want that! I want release! I
want to rise above all this and become who I should be. But it is so hard.
God saves they say, but they don’t say how far we can go down
before he does. Does he see me? Does he hear my anguish?
From the distance I can feel that outstretched hand offering help. To get it I have to give up my lies,
my distortions of truth, my masks, my false statements about myself. I have to give up my view of pleasures, even my view
I have to
take that hand. Can I? Will I?
I know Jesus is there. Many have told me. I know they say God is love yet why am I like this, if this is true?
Is it perhaps because I refuse to accept the
love of the God of the universe? Is it because I want so badly to deny he exists. To deny Jesus walked this earth?
The fish hooks in my soul are
pulling me away from Him again. I must follow.
Or must I?
What if I accept Jesus is actually who he says he is?
What if I believe his promise to help?
They say he will help. He will remove the bondages of sin as I confess and allow them to go. The fish hooks
of evil will no longer have control. I will be free.
I am stubborn. How stubborn am I?
Stubborn enough to die into this eternity of pain.
Jesus knew pain! He understands. Somehow I know that. I know he loves me. Distantly
I feel it.
move to him.
The fish hooks cut into
heavenly hand moves through the mire of darkness towards me. Loving! Kind!
“I am not worth anything” I scream. "Nobody loves
do!” I hear the answer in my spirit. “I died in love for you,...”
It’s incredible! I must have the courage to accept God’s
ask me to help! Give me your life and I will give it back free from evils control!”
It’s my choice.
Pray for me!
[If you feel this way, know Jesus IS the answer. Ask Him to help. Find Christians
and ask them to help. Open the bible. Read psalms. Know God will be victorious. Jesus loves you]
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